Beliefs Inventory

To connect my self view with my beliefs and behaviors, my therapist wants me to do this Beliefs Inventory from The Relaxation and Stress Reduction Workbook by Martha Davis, Elizabeth Robbins Eshelman, and Matthew McKay. It says that I scored more than 50% on the following logical fallacies:

1. It is an absolute necessity for an adult to have love and approval from peers, family, and friends.

4. It is horrible when people and things are not the way you would like them to be.

5. External events cause most human misery - people simply react as events trigger their emotions.

6. You should feel fear or anxiety about anything that is unknown, uncertain, or potentially dangerous.

7. It is easier to avoid than to face life's difficulties and responsibilities.

8. You need something other or stronger or greater than yourself to rely on.

Other irrational ideas not indicated in the inventory that I said I agree with:

15. When people disapprove of you, it invariably means that you are wrong or bad.

I'll need to comment on these at a later time.

Histrionic Behavior and True Reality In Emotions

Histrionic - A deliberate display of emotion for effect
http://wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn?s=histrionics

I get very demonstrative and I often do try to tailor my behavior to what I think should be the right emotional response. I also know that it's connected to my sex addiction, which often turns my affect inside-out. Often my reality situation leaves me disgruntled, bored, and impatient because it doesn't live up to the elation I could have received from the addiction.

In my faith in God and Christ, I remind myself that my body is lying to me, as one of the three sources of temptation (the other two being the devil and the World) and that reality only exists in Christ. I look around me for signs of True Life and search them thoroughly for satisfaction and positive feelings.

Thesis, Goals, and Target Audience

Thesis:
Very often, science attempts to explain and control life by shutting out Life Himself, Jesus Christ. It touches on proverbs and other truths that are actually in line with the Truth of the Word of God, but not by faith. Rather, it is by a systematic, self-absorbed process to attempt to live a life that is as long and self-fulfilling as possible. The Bible calls this "having a form of godliness, but denying its power." (2 Timothy 3:5)

I normally address my problems and issues through my faith. But since this counseling has been mandated by the State, and I don't have money to pay for a Christian counselor, I will express my opinions and understandings through this blog, by God's grace and will. This is for my own sanity as well as to lovingly share a faith-based spiritual perspective with others concerned about anti-Christian influence.

This is not to say that the State is simply evil and twisted, and trying to impose mind control. I understand and appreciate the numerous people who make up the governmental (not "govern mental") system, and their humble, loving acts to try to help others find happiness and self-control. I love each person I work with. There is a lot of truth and righteousness in many things they say, whether they know it or not. But it's also important to remember that world cannot bring us peace in any way, shape, or form. God brings us peace through Christ our Lord, paying the price for our sins in his death, and giving us eternal life, peace, and contentment.

Goals:
1. To journal about my narcissism, as diagnosed by the State of Illinois, while I work through the therapies and exercises, in accordance with my Christian faith.
2. To respond to these science-based ideas with my spirituality and faith in Jesus Christ.

Target Audience:
1. Myself, so that I can journal about my therapy
2. Others who are concerned about anti-Christian influence and the phenomenon of self-help .